I may be annoying and ugly but at least i don’t have auto play on my blog
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So I guess this is kind of a before and after, but from 2011.
My highest weight was about 84kg, and then through restriction and being horrible and starving myself over the summer I hit 68kg.
I’m 5 ft 7.
I’m sorry.
Haven’t updated for a few months because well, I’m sick again.
I tried healthy eating, I really did. I tried to be normal and eat like a normal person but I can’t, I just can’t. I’m sorry, not only to myself but to all my followers. I’ll probably deactivate this account because the majority of my followers are fitspo.
I guess what they say about never really recovering from an eating disorder is true.
I’m reblogging myself cause this has reached 3000 notes and frankly, that astounds me!
The negative comments always make me sad - “where did her boobs go” (I’m still a D cup, bitch) - “oh she had surgery, see the scar?” (appendectomy…) “ew she looks scrawny now, was definitely better before”
I am not scrawny or too thin, I’m fit and healthy and toned. Before I was overweight, ate a load of shit and was uncomfortable when I looked in the mirror. Now, my thighs and calves are rock hard, I can run 2 miles without getting out of breath and I’m working on developing my abs. Most importantly, I eat a nutritious diet and I love my body. I’m proud of it!
So fuck youuuuuuuuuuu motherfuckers!
I love this. :) Also, this gives me hope. Boobs, you must stay with me.
Don’t listen to the negatives! They’re just jealous of you’re amazing progress!!
One of the most frustrating things I see when perusing the ‘fitspiration’ and ‘fitspo’ tags is when I read posts where girls are freaking out because they’ve gained weight and they’ve been working out so hard and they might as well give up. Trust me, I know what that’s like. My mood for the entire day was once defined by whether or not I had lost weight from the day before. It’s a tired adage - that muscle weighs more than fat, but it’s true.
Ladies - take pictures & take your measurements. The photos above were from the first day that I went to the gym and then 30 days later. I gained weight.. while it’s only 5 lbs, keep in mind that is over 5% of my starting body weight. However, you will notice that I look slightly thinner in the picture on the right. I also made measurable strength & endurance gains in the gym. There is nothing inherently evil about gaining weight, and nothing inherently good about losing weight. Listen to your body - how much energy do you have? are things that were once difficult now getting easier for you? do your clothes fit differently than they used to? Don’t let an arbitrary number on a scale define your worth. It only has that power if you let it.
Eyebrow plucking is SO painful omfg
